Friday, July 20, 2012

So today alot went down.... first we got rained out at the the hot dog cart :( but we made up with it by going to Port Townsend and checking stuff out. We (Christian, Josh and I) went to get Waterfront Pizza first, which was fab, then we walked all the way down the street to the pier to find our names in the stone courtyard. we found it.... We ended walking around PT and had a pretty awesome day. thats all for now, but i will update this more often!



hey so its been a while but i havestuffto vent about. josh has ajob interview at Boeingdont get me wrong its totally awesome, but i like that he wasworking at edge. now hes going to be farther away andi dontknow what shift he will be working on so i dontknow if i wil seehim moreor less. but yeah thats it.

Friday, March 2, 2012

check me out!!!

So i was just playing around on my computer a couple of nights ago and i wrote a little short story. it's kind of about my life and kind of not, but i liked it enough to share it!

New Life or Dream Catcher

So there I was, on the corner of Warner and 10th street. Looking up and down both streets, when I saw what I needed to see, a pillar of light. That light shone so brightly that I thought I might burn from the intense heat, but I knew all I had to do was enjoy it. That light was the light, that ray, was the sun shining on a perfect February day. This day was the day that I stepped into the most beautiful house on the hill, the house of dreams, my house. One place to call my own, a place to have my name on the mailbox, well our names. One place to have a lifetime together. I saw his face gleam from behind my sunglasses. I hadn’t had the chance to wear my sunglasses in months, it felt like eons ago. He conveyed everything I felt. Excitement, giddiness, hope and fear all wrapped up into one. Were we able to do this? Are we going to make it on our own? I knew he saw the concern on my face, he could always read me like a book. All he had to do was smile and stretch out his hand, and I knew. I was going to be all right. I took his strong hand in my small one and together we took a giant leap of faith. The first thing I noticed as I stepped into our new home was the light, the same light that I noticed outside had followed us in. The guiding light that kept us from buying our new home months ago because we couldn’t afford it, the same light that told me the knot in my stomach wasn’t just a knot. I knew that my Heavenly Father would bring me joy, but who would have guessed that joy would have a few lives attached to it. I can see the future in this new living room, bare and empty but renewed with life. I can see children running, water streaming and life beginning to unfold. I hear the football games and the cheering coming from down the street, I hear my heart beat wildly. Key’s in hand we begin the long journey to the bedroom, our furniture starting to appear. A bed, a night stand, the clock without the alarm, a life we used to live filling up a new house. We were falling, deeper into a dream, into an embrace. I could feel the tears on his face but I don’t lift my head, I don’t dare say a word. I didn’t want to ruin it, I just hugged harder and kissed him lighter. I pressed my hand to my stomach and felt the life inside me grow. He said only one thing to me before I woke, “Can I keep you?”

Monday, February 27, 2012

Life: in general

i have had the best couple of months with my new husband and my new life, but sometimes when i think of how much we haven't accomplished i get a little bummed. we still don't have our own place of residence... i hope thats not a bad thing, i mean we dont have a house, we dont have an apartment, we are living above my in-laws garage. i mean i love them dearly and they are the most wonderful people in the world, i'm so lucky to have such great people on my side, but shouldn't we have a place to call our own? josh still does not have a job. i know he works really hard and puts himself out there every single day and works on getting a job but NO ONE IS HIRING, which makes both of our lives difficult. Of course we still love each other and hard times are just making us grow stronger. every week is the same though, monday through thursday i get up and eat breakfast and cuddle with my husband untill i have to go to work (sometimes we go to the libaray of course) and then work work work, then i get home and watch friends, then sleep. fridays and saturdays are slightly different because i dont have to work (usally, sometimes yes) then sunday our relief day. we get to relax and go to church. i get to hang out with my kiddos in sunday school and sing songs in Primary. i get to see my group of people and get hugs and kisses. my day to feel wanted more than anyting by my Heavenly Father, my day to read my scriptures and feel so free. sunday is my happy place :) i get to come home and just sit on the couch and watch all the kids play on the rug and josh and i get to play games, while everyone else is running and screaming. i feel perrfectly happy on sundays and then i go to sleep and wake up to the nightmare that is the whole next week. now i AM writing this on a monday so that might be part of the cynic that is comeing out, but i do hope for sunshine (or snow, no more rain) and a better week to come.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Christmas, Santa and Skiing

So this year has defiantly been one of the craziest years ever. We have found ourselves creating new lives and most of all falling in love. The best thing this year has given me is a husband, a love to call my own, a light and rock in my life. The Lord has blessed me with so much and josh is a HUGE one.

But when it gets around that time of the year where everyone is starting to think about what their life, and year, has been like. It's Christmas time people. We start thinking what the heck have I done this year? And why has it gone so fast? I really know my year is over when I get to come back to my hometown, vist all my brothers and their families and get top ski. No this year is a bit different because I have a guy with me. The most wonderful guy in the world I might add. this year josh and I have made a wager, that when we went skiing that he would try to ski, those were the terms. I won't go into the 'bet' details, but it was pretty awesome... So to make a long story short, he lost. So he had to ski, well once we got up to the mountain this morning the power was OFF!! It was truly devastating. We waited and we waited, finally we hiked up the bunny hill , around 11 and I started to teach him the basics. He was pretty good. As soon as we got down the hill towards the lift, m.it started running so at least the whole day wasn't ruined. We had a great time ski and josh snowbaoarded. He's turning into a real pro. I like that he has no fear so even though he knew only how to turn a little he still went straight down the mountain. NO FEAR!! We made it until about 1:30 and we just were so tired that we headed home, well to Jon's home. We have had the perfect Christmas this year and have truly enjoyed being around family.

Having family and getting the chance to create the memories and 'ghosts' appear before us help us to remember that we are all kids in side, you don't have to know that Santa isn't real to be a grown up. Josh has taught me, and showed me that it is also my flaw, that I think that putting away the toys and forgetting about the good stuff doesn't make you an adult, it makes you boring. So your allowed to break out the Legos and the Barbies and just have a grand ole' time cause why the heck not! Live while you can and find joy in what your doing cause that's the point to living, not money not success but joy, true happiness.

Hope you all had a Merry Christmas and have a great New Year